I woke up this morning and I feel like a complete looser. I pray everyday and I have faith that Jesus will restore my hope. I am not sure if I believe in myself, I can’t seem to figure why these events has happened to me or why they are happening to me. Over the years I have constantly been going and going and searching and trying this that and the next. I have to motivate myself to get out of bed and I have to. 02/18/2018